Mama knows best is one of those cliche sayings you hear when your a child, but you never really listen to the advice from those three simple words. We never really take a moment from this fast life to marvel at the small mundane things that we need to start appreciating because it sadly took a rude awakening for me to try and be grateful each day.
This world was created for love and unity but all I have seen or experienced in some form or fashion is abuse of power, judgement of others and high powered owners of businesses taking for granted what God has blessed them with in life. This is exactly why our people are living on the streets worrying about their next meal, addicts from ALL walks alike robbing, lying, or selling their bodies or worse, forced to, while hunting something for the awful psychological and body pains associated with withdrawals or even worse babies growing up without their families. High power brings the dope in the USA while incarcerating and financially penalizing us for it but then only charge people that commit rape, molestation or any other sexual act 2 to 4 years or even probation.
I look around seeing us all so caught up in the worldly possessions. We have lost track of what life is about because we continue to remove God from our lives. Why are we not aloud to say his name while holding our hearts and saying Our Pledge of Alligiance? Why do you have to wear certain clothes, speak and act a specific way to be considered a believer? I don’t know about you, but I am worried about offending God not some human being that is “on my level.” I want eternal life past the beautiful arches of those pearly white gates.
We are afraid to hurt other peoples feelings or if we do maybe its criticized in the eyes of your circle of friends or family. If you dont try to speak politically correct nowadays than we as a society divid ourselves thinking ourselves is always the correct individual or organization. If we keep doing this eventually we will be the destruction of ourselves too from the differences that make us beautiful.
I thought I knew it all when I was a little girl and wanted to grow up so fast because I saw on TV that flashy kind of life with perfect hair, body and family, but life happend and it wasn’t so dreamy anymore. I never listened to my elders advice or older kids I looked upto because we are all selfish as hell and stubborn at that age. My mom isn’t perfect, but damn it she is genuine and one of the best moms I will ever know because she taught me values, respect, love, and trust and to love the Lord. Some of my poor choices in life would not probaby happened if I would have listened to her for once, but I had to be bull headed as hell and that brought extra pain throughout life.
I had a strong intuition hit me like a ton of bricks about Mama knows best and for the first time I am going to listen. Instead of fighting for my beliefs or values, kill them with kindness because riding through a town that carries tremendous pain showed me how the first hells bells literally caused me to loose my mind for a bit, but what’s important is now especially when the pain doesn’t control me as much keeps getting smaller and smaller. I finally accepted some things and completely forgave some last resentments I felt held me back from moving forward into my new chapter in this amazing life I’ve been given.
Funny to think God knew exactly how I would be stubborn so he so beautifully and methodically created other events in my life to wake me up and get me to go after a second chance in life. Sometimes a blessing can be extremely overwhelming too. While reflecting riding home a sudden strong emotion swept my heart and thoughts.
I am going to stand my ground with my Mom too though with believing in myself and knowing I can and will achieve sobriety and a new way of life without the families spending tons of money or state to provide homes we just end of becoming frequent flyers.
My mom is correct when she says that I can’t overcome obstacles until I let go of the anger and vengeance & life can only move upward if I am living in a way of giving back through the love God overflowed in my heart. At this point I have nothing else to lose so Sunday May 5th 2019 will be my final day 1 and if I fail then I enroll at a rehab immediately, no ifs, ands or butts about it.
God grant me the Serenity to accept the things I can not change, the courage to change the things that I can and the wisdom to know the difference. Amen